I have never before in my life been so mad at someone till yesterday. There's this girl, whom I've met twice in my entire life, that said I bitched about her. I don't even f*cking know her, why would I bitch about her in the first place? It's absolutely flabbagasting because all I said about her (to Gus and Sam) was that I found her rude as I asked her a question the previous Saturday and she replied me in a manner that threatened rudeness in every syllable, "oh sorry, I don't know." Samantha said she's not that kind of person, so perhaps I mistook it. However, after what Gus told me yesterday, I'm sorry but I don't think I'm mistaken at all. I don't even f*cking know you, why the hell would I want to bitch about you?! It's not as if your life is so interesting and scandalous that I HAVE to speak about it. Pur-leeze, this is so needless. Last night, I slaved away in the kitchen for 45 minutes to cook dinner but I ate it up in like 15. Not that I actually minded because it turned out nice. Just simple fare, as I hate complicated stuff. Will post a picture when I've uploaded it. heh. All I did was sauteed potatoes in some olive oil and garlic, tossed pasta in pesto (which is miracle stuff, omg I just love it) and had an egg. Whee.
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I hope there's dinner for me at Godma's when I leave work today on the dot at 6pm. Which is actually the time they eat dinner. heh.
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After nearly a week of procrastination on my part, I finally uploaded the pictures, with the exception of the polariods, while playing TigerWoods2008 on my computer last night. Why wait for it to be uploaded on photobucket when I can multi-task? haha. Friday was a breezy day, perfect for an outdoor wedding. The place they chose was Water Cross, a great place for chill out sessions with a drink in hand. It's like a beach pub with lazy chairs (is that what it's called? those chairs you find by the pool side) that leads up to the beach. Brilliant I tell you. Though everyone's attending a BEACH wedding, most turned up in dresses and the works. Made me feel like a goon cos I was just wearing a white flow-y skirt with a t-shirt. Damn. haha. Dad wore a Gap shirt and cargo berms, which was funny among all the dressed to the sorta nines people. Well, it was absolutely brilliant to have the whole Heartland gang in attendance as it's not always everyone can gather together. Which reminds me that the polariods have not been uploaded! GG!
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No I haven't. When these sort of questions just randomly pop up, it's absolutely mind boggling. It makes you think about issues that you don't normally think about and want to think about. I wouldn't say it's been bothering me but it makes me think. And it's really not something I want to do currently. Gracie asked me have I ever thought that he's the kind of guy that I will like. 0_o What do you want me to say man? Like seriously? Last friday, John and Patricia had their ROM session at Water Cross (which is more commonly know as the old Fisherman's Village) at Pasir Ris Park. It was beautiful really, the entire beach idea and in the evening, there was this huge rainbow. Aww... I'll post the photos up when I've done scanning the polariods and uploading those I took with my handphone camera onto photobucket. -edited 15.11.07 @ 9.20am- I feel like switching from photobucket to another host for my photos though.
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"Don't emo, buy something back for you." "Haha, sia la, what makes you think I emo man! Haha.." "Lol, cause you always emo that's why. Heh" "*jaw drops. No way lor! Haha. What you buying?" "Something lor lol. lalala. Something good for the both of us." "Haha, nice thanks. If you say it's good, then it's gotta be good.." "Actually I don't know whether good or not. Lol" DOUGHNUTS!!! Thanks mate. SY went with me to eat dinner at Century Square. At the bus stop, we saw the Kraft Singles Cheese advert and seriously, his baby pictures resembled that kid. So he said to take a picture of him alongside the advert. haha. *tada! The finished product.
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我已经说了我不可以喜欢他,可是现在发现到我很可能会. 我不想这么做因为自己知道会伤到自己而已. 这件事很象以前发生过的事情, 那时候一直要跟自己说我不可以喜欢他, 如果他没有联络我或者没SMS, 真的一直要提醒自己他跟你(我)无关, 不需要跟我"报告". 可能前几天当开始的时候会很不自在但是真的需要这么做. 我很喜欢跟他讲话原因是他会弄我笑. 不过, 我会相同的. 不可以象以前一样, 把自己的心给人家, 到头来还是伤害到自己. 我不想这么做, 一定要把感情和事实分开. 如果不能找到另一半就酸了. 自己还可以做我想要做的事情.
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Pardon the lack of interesting titles, as such is the start of the new month, I thought we shall just give a salute to the second last month of the year. I mentioned before that I don't like to contact a person everyday, simply because I know I will get attached to them. When that happens, I become pretty much quite emotional when the person doesn't contact me. *shrugs. Especially during times when there's nothing to do, and your mind just wanders around, it's pretty tough. All these thoughts like, "Did he hear something from someone, that's why he's suddenly not speaking to me?" or "Did I do something or say something wrong?" would come to head and start attacking me. Not saying that it is now, though it's happening. I don't fancy him, or think for the slightest bit that I do, but it's still mind-boggling. At least now, I'm not too concerned about why he's not sms-ing me. Just shrugging it off, like it's not my problem who he wants to speak to because it's really not my problem. It doesn't have to make me "emo" or unhappy and I'm chosing not to let it allow me to do so.
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I've been thinking that I need to include photos with my entries nowadays (and so says Kayi as well). Seeing how "zen" my template is, the pictures add a splash of colour on a white/grey background. So I'll try to incorporate some, though the pictures may be posted a day later than the actual post because I need to go home and upload it first. heh heh. Kayi got me quite a bit of stuff lately. She bought a huge block of Cadbury's Turkish Delight on Friday and got me a Melon Pan today! How cool lar! haha. Thanks much! Oh the second photo was my desk for almost an entire week. A hard bench with a MacBook Pro which I had to borrow from store. haha. I love MacBook Pros, wished I had one. If I'm accepted into LCB next year, I'll get it before I go. Wheee. On a much heavier note. I need the dentist. My tooth bloody hurts. One of my molars came off last year and instead of patching it back, I procrastinated till now, that it has a hole the size of 2 molars instead. I better get it done, before my entire tooth disintegrates and rots and whatever term the dentist uses. Ah, decaying teeth. Which would probably mean an injection. Damn it, I hate pain. I wish I could be under general anaesthesia (spelling error I know, but I'm not a doctor sprouting those words day in day out) for a simple thing as extraction. Hopefully can just patch back and save me a tooth. *Oh help God! -edit @1540hrs- I find it damn strange when both of you stop talking to me at the same time. Like BOTH. sigh. -edited @ 2248hrs- I told myself a million times that I will not like you. I will not like you. I will not like you. I will not like you. I will not like you. I will not like you. I MUST NOT like you. I CANNOT like you.
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Can the both be separated? Is it true that I've trained myself to make something that seems to be two entities to be just that? Two seperate items. Where else most people would take one and join with another due to actions and words. I've seen the hurt it caused by mistaking. I think that's one of my good points now. That I'm able to separate fact from percieved (in your own mind or otherwise) fiction. *peace sign Bleah, I hate it. I hate this waiting thing. Why the silence? and where's you? Don't ask me if there's anything wrong. I just have too much time to think and talk rubbish. Muahahaha. *evil laughter. But still *sighhh. -edit @ 10.01am, 24.10.07- I had too much time on my hands. So it was too much thinking for my own good. *shakes head.
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After whining to a few people this week about wanting the Fred Perry bag, I finally bought it yesterday. Whee. I met Rainer and Gracie in the afternoon and they went with me to get it. haha. Rainer was like, "You see! You should have gotten it last week!" and said I can go home and take a picture of the paperbag and the bag to post it on my blog. haha. He has a 10% discount due to the amount he spent last week which was, to say the least, eye-popping on 2 polo shirts. But it looked good, and good stuff sometimes don't come cheap. When Gracie saw the bag, she said, "Yeah you should get it. It's nice." Pretty much settled when she said that. Popped into the shop and came out in 10 mins I think. Then it was K (again, third time in 7 weeks) with 12 people in total and it was quite hilarious, to say the least) because Glenn and Samson was singing all these english songs like Numb by Linkin Park, It's Not Over by Daughtry, etc. And we went to Vivo after that because Glenn wanted to shop. But there wasn't anything nice. So we headed to Marche which I totally enjoyed. Because of Rosti, Mushrooms and Fruity Crepe with Caramelita Ice Cream, the last two which I shared with Eunice. Eunice and I were just walking round and round looking for food, and we didn't know what to get, because everything looked so good! I wanted plain crepe at first, but she said, mind as well add the fruits. So we did, and it was freaking filling! Justin gave us half portion of his chocolate mousse too, and the 2 of us finished that as well. Total orgasmic experience. Whee.
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Let me tell you something. Carrying 2 bowling balls home with no tote bag or a trolley is not fun. Especially when it weighs 14 pounds each and you have to walk home. I decided not to bring the trolley to school and now I have very aching arms because I carried one in a carrier on my right, and one under my left arm. Safra resort is a nice place to go to, but it's located at some obscure corner of the island. I bowled there last night for a friend's team known as One Cent Beer, due to the combination of 2 names (Infer(no) and (Colum)bia. So if you like translate the Infer = 一分= One Cent. Bia = Beer (like obviously right?) eh get it? I should have just "buang" last night. Now my handicap is 11pins, with the maximum being 30 for girls. Bleahhh. How to win now? How to winnn?! -edit- Yay, dinner at airport later with Justin and Rainer. I've always enjoyed dinner at the fabulous Changi Airport in our small little island. A little pricey but then again, good food is not about the price. Wooots! Happy wappy. I love food lar!
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I feel like singing now. I'm always envious of people who can sing, and sing like it's no effort at all. Like damn. Some people are just blessed. But everyone has a talent. Have you found yours? Ok, I've been having this immense urge to bake since the start of the week. I miss making and decorating cakes and chocolates. Wish I was back at Canele working, but they're really like famous now. It was a very fun time for me when I was there 2 years ago, before it officially opened. Annabel recommended me to work there, even though it was only for 2 weeks (it was the only time I could afford). They called me back like 4 months later to work, but I turned them down due to CampRefresh. Till now, that's one of my regrets. Check out their website. http://www.lesamis.com.sg/webtop/canele/
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Here I am, in my little cubicle, doing nothing basically as usual. Except writing on db of course. It's my daily routine, coming into the office, clearing my mail, surfing around, then getting down to writing on db. Adrian's posted our Diploma show and Graduation photographs on facebook, brings back a lot of memories. haha. Those times, those mates, it's getting nostalgic. He's in Bristol, England; Kath's in Canada; Jinghui, Dawn, Joyce is going to be in Melbourne come Feburary 2008; and I suppose it'll be my turn in April. Everyone's kind of moving towards university and all, and I'll be back in college doing another diploma. I can do my degree if I want, but it'll take me roughly 6.5 years and I need to do my Advance Diploma in Culinary Arts before I do my Bachelor's in Culinary Management. My goal is to be a chef and not a restaurant manager so the diploma's good enough. It worries me sometimes, the thought of going over and then coming back after. What I'm afraid of is that the people you once had things in common with, you won't have much in common after. Because of experiences, and lots of other things. I can't bear to lose a lot of them because they're the only bunch I know that's still close to me even after leaving school, and some have been even closer to me though we never used to talk much in school. These are the people I count on a lot, who's been with me through a lot of things. I don't keep in contact with my secondary school mates saving a few, that's why they mean so much as I never had a group that's been with me for so long. Except Farhana whom I've known since primary school. I don't really want to go at the same time as I can't do the things I do here over there. Like supper nights, impromtu gatherings, late night movies, ''nua-ing'' at friend's place. The list goes on. But I suppose that's what change and life is all about. I'm so going to miss my mates. *shrugs.
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This is the reason why I don't like to speak to a person everyday. You sort of become attached to the person and it feels very weird when there isn't any conversation for a day, be it through the phone or through messages. I'm working on not bothering about these kind of small issues. *shrugs. It takes awhile to get used to it, but I suppose it'll make me feel better. Just goes away after awhile. Once I just write about it, I'm alright afterwards. haha. Talk about getting over silly things fast eh? I guess after a period of time, there's nothing much to talk about as it was mainly about superficial things or repetitive items. That doesn't last very long especially if one doesn't open up to you. Doesn't feel like a fair exchange. I just wish that certain people would open up a little more. So that you know what's really going on, and you don't just see a facade. But still, I'm thinking too much. Just ignore my ramblings for now. =) I'll be alright in about half an hour. haha. -edit- Everything's a-okay. *peace sign. -2nd edit @ 1613hrs, 23.10.07- Shoots, it's happening again. Detach yourself.
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Came to work really like late yesterday morning, because I woke up late. Thank God school's not really stringent about getting to work on time, but still, I think I better buck up. hurhur. Besides, I've to walk to work this week due to the fact that pay only comes on the 13th. sigh. Last night was sort of fun. Met Justin and gQ for dinner before meeting Rainer with them to watch Resident Evil: Extinction. Justin didn't call me until Rainer told him to ask me, then I went along. I was a bit worried to watch the show, as I'm not into the horror/gore/vampires kind of thing, but since I was outnumbered 3 to 1, didn't look like I had a choice. So I went along. Stupid show really, ending was crap to say the least, just so they could continue with the 4th of the franchaise. *rolls eyes. You know, like during tense moments where the bad guy's going to appear, they'll play the kind of sounds where it'll just shock you? I got shocked like twice, where I just kind of jumped in my seat, and Rainer was like, ''asto! chill chill, not yet. but mentally prepare yourself, the guy going to come out already." The second time I did that, he went like, you can borrow my shoulder, it's quite big. No thanks mate. Thanks for the offer but no thanks, as I've decided not to like you, so I'm doing everything possibly not to. hurhur. It's not like I do anyway. But yeah, you get my drift I suppose. After which we went for supper at 201 before walking home as usual. haha. Supper nights!
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This is about a day late, due to my stupidity for not bring a cable to transfer photos out of my memory card. My Sony Ericsson's wonky and I can't transfer anything using it, so the only other option for me is to put the memory card into my PSP and then transfer out from there. Which by the way, is troublesome, as I have to plug in my card then my charger then my cable. ... ... ... I swear I love Augustine. haha. That's what I told him the night before, and he replied, "Yeah I know, since the day you met me right?" -_-||| His parents weren't home, and Mylene (his maid) wasn't as well, he was thinking what to get for dinner. Then he suggested cooking, which I then asked if he'll cook for me if I came over. When he said yes, I went to meet him at Cold Storage after dinner. Seafood Pasta, Rosti, Beef Steak, Meatballs and Mussells, which he, Aloysious (his brother), Mylene and I ate. Naishhh. =) And then, Turtle Soup (Ben and Jerry's concoction) for dessert. I was one happy person.
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I did like the stupidest thing. Brought my PSP to work, along with the charger (as my battery is with a friend) so that I could load up some pictures to post. However, I forgot the cable! So smart right?! *shakes head. -edit- I do miss you. I don't know why.
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I think for the moment, I'm just going to keep this site a secret. You know like 不能说的秘密. At least this way, I have an avenue to say what I'd like to, and if people stumble upon it, hopefully they won't say anything because in the first place I didn't mention it and allow me a little privacy. Hold up! Privacy on the net's pretty rare anyway. *shrugs. Rainer came over today, to get a passport sized photo done, only reason being because I had a decent printer. My brothers were pretty annoying in a sense because they were just teasing me non stop. Especially Elisha. *grr. I admit, I've got quite a lot of guy friends but I suppose that's only because I can click with them. It's not as if I'm romantically attracted to them. Having said that, I'm straight (just saying lar) because that sentence is pretty ambiguous. It's really annoying just because you're sorta close to someone that people mistake you for being together? Anyway, we're not, and it's not something I want. I just wished they (my brothers) just shut up when my guy friends come over because it's nothing at all. Anyway, a K session was in order yesterday. 9 of us in K Box at Parkway. First time singing with so many people. Meh Meh, Eunice, XiaoHui, Abel, Samson, Christine, Me, Stanley and Rainer (haha, in the order we were sitting in by the way). Quite fun la, though at the beginning was a little annoying because no one seemed to want to start. *shakes head. Oh oh. I'm looking for this game Chocolatier. With the cracks and all. But can't seem to find it. *sighs.
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