一年多没有更新， DBDB玩不来了， 研究了半天，似乎理出了一点头绪。。。 好吧，做个2009年总结。 去年最开心的事情就是圣诞去了德国、法国、荷兰度了个假， 最悲惨的是出了一次车祸，废了一辆BMW。 吃的最多的餐厅是ELEMENT FRESH. 去的最多的咖啡馆是AMOKKA, 夏天去露天游泳池游了半天泳，忘记带防晒霜， 一直没有白回来， 现在还留有比基尼MARK~ 另外，没有换男朋友。 再说今年， 年初的时候为了赶上班， 摔了一大跤， 膝盖上缝了一针， 作为2010年的开场。 摸摸伤疤， CIAO 2009 HELLO 2010~
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太久太久太久没更新了！ 期间吃了很多顿大餐，去了一次苏州，见了很多新朋友。 下个礼拜就是星期一，圣诞节要临近了@ 昨天和david还有他的一帮子朋友去Papa's Bierstube搞了今年的第一个圣诞聚会。 我们每个人都买了奇怪的礼物到时抽号码互换礼品， 最后被选出的最shit的礼物购买者将成为WINNER～ 结果最shit的礼物果真被我这只幸运的手抽到， peter买的hello kitty set夺冠， 我和D不得不戴着Hello kitty的皇冠项链戒指在餐厅招摇过市～～～ 大家一直闹到12点才纷纷从餐厅出来， 觉得日子过得很快， 去年的圣诞节还历历在目， plz get out of my mind!!!!
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F1最后一天， 身为德国人的D终于良心发现要为自己国家的赛车手捧场。 本来以为就和他两个人， 结果丫的给我带来一帮他的同事。 8个德国男人+1个中国女人的组合很是奇怪， 感觉我就差“XX旅行社”的小红旗一面了。 9个人浩浩荡荡来到赛车场， 本以为票子都搞定的我打算直接入场了， 结果D跟我说他们的计划是当场买票的， 我一时说不出话来， 怎么他来了中国那么就还不了解国情啊~ 最终不得不和黄牛打持久战。 那帮子大男人舒舒服服的坐在草坪上晒太阳， 我一个弱小女子和黄牛BARGIN，D在旁边陪着瞎着急。 780的票在离比赛结束1个小时前搞定， 此时的我早就没了兴致。 本来对赛车就没兴趣的我只觉得耳朵快聋了， 后遗症就是现在还时不时的耳鸣中~ TMD亏了！
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YEA, just eating out with D again... in City Diner ...which was within stumbling distance of the Tongren Lu complex of nightclubs and bars. ..thats why the taxi driver keep asking if we go for drink ... freakin me out - -" Guess City Diner is the only 24 hour diner in Shanghai. what we found was a mostly empty restaurant – but the food and service were pretty damn good!!! Loooooove the HUGE CHILI BURGER there! Gotta try the cheese cake next time, yummy! yummy!
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最近跟着Ben上了一节单反课程， 整个过程非常的专业， 应该说Ben同学表现的非常专业， 拿着他的大炮完全沉溺其中， 为了拍浦江夜景， 居然在江边匍匐前进， 被他的职业热情感动到了！！！ 跟着他满个上海的跑， 很艰辛， 他的大三脚架就架在我边上， 两条腿差点抽住~ 但最终结果很满意（见图片，很好看的浦东夜景呢！） 晚上我累的实在抗不住， 看DVD的时候居然睡着了， 诡异的事情发生！ 号称自己也已经睡着了的Ben居然也出现在照片中， 是谁拍的照片呢？ 答案在本文章中寻找~
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星期天陪D去IKEA买了很多东西， 碗，杯子，画框，甚至一颗植物。。。 装满一部车开到他的apartment. 小小的复式， 装修简洁， 一间卧室+书房， 超级大的晒台~ 阳光很温暖的撒满整个房间。。。啊啊啊！ 这个不就是我梦想的小屋吗~ D到了家就安顿好小树， 我用杯子给它浇了点水， 之后开始勤劳的做手工课， 把原先挂在墙上的丑的要人命的画都换了。 看着新的照片挂在墙上， 很有成就感~ 希望自己也能有这样一个空间让我爬上爬下的折腾， 强烈要求D的landlord等我赚够钱把这房子给盘下来。
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发现老天爷很公平， 人不能做一点点的坏事， 否则肯定被揭穿。 我做的坏事居然自己都一五一十的抖了出来， 说完后，伤害了别人也苦了自己。 哭啊，难过啊这些过程都省了， 老娘只想拼命讲话，出去HAPPY， 可是家里能听我唠叨的人都没有。 连顿热菜热饭都没有~~~~~~ 晚上十点在MSN上碰到Ben, 丫的刚刚从虹桥打完poker回来， 说the whole week 赢了一万二。 我靠，小巨头开始赌博了。 他刚刚打完：how r u doing? 我就猛朝他倒苦水， 我说我怎么命那么苦， 我说我情感的道路怎么那么曲折， 我说我怎么连个热菜热汤都吃不上。 ben果然够义气，二话没说来接我吃饭。 晚上十点，餐厅通通关门， 最后ben说要么cityshop里买点东西自己烧。 我们两个人狂冲time plaza b1, 所有的员工都等着我们两个人购物完好下班， 于是一群人围观我和ben买牛排买蘑菇买玉米买鸡翅买芒果汁买巧克力买冰欺凌。。。 很是拉风~ 大包小包拎回去烧烤， 我在房间里看the fall， 看几个片段stop一记，跑出去监督一下ben的工作。 牛排和鸡翅还有蘑菇上要涂专门的butter, 还有专门的香料， ben cook果然有一手， 香的不得了。。。 吃牛排的时候我连叉都不用， 吃鸡翅的时候差点自己的手指头咬进去~ 两天终于吃上了顿雪中送炭的热饭。 很感动很感动~
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这个礼拜彻底被抛弃在家， 这老两口开心的跑出去旅游度假， 留我一人守个空房子。 由于本人向来糊涂， 为了减小由于忘记关煤气或者忘记拔某些电源开关导致惨死在家的可能性， 亲爱的老爸老妈做足了功课。 他们走的那天我一直睡到下午3点， 起床溜达了一圈， 发现满屋子都是小黄纸条~~~ 除非我瞎了， 基本上这个礼拜我能靠这些小黄纸条保证自己的人生安全。
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2008-8-22 19:01:41 Ben: Nate took me off his Skype list 2008-8-22 19:01:49 Ben: I was doing you a favor by telling you 2008-8-22 19:01:56 Ben: you didn't have to screw me over like that 2008-8-22 19:02:14 Vanilla: iv no idea he will do that 2008-8-22 19:02:25 Vanilla: Ben im truly sorry 2008-8-22 19:02:27 Ben: I told you he would 2008-8-22 19:02:48 Vanilla: i thought he did that on purpose 2008-8-22 19:03:07 Ben: I told you he didn't tell me to tell you that 2008-8-22 19:03:49 Vanilla: come on, u r his best friend, he will add u back sooner or later...take it easy! 2008-8-22 19:04:04 Ben: He stays angry for a long time 2008-8-22 19:04:07 Ben: I doubt he will 2008-8-22 19:04:32 Vanilla: when it happen? 2008-8-22 19:04:47 Ben: I just noticed it today 2008-8-22 19:04:59 Vanilla: how come u notice it all of sudden? 2008-8-22 19:05:13 Vanilla: no idea how to do with SKYPE 2008-8-22 19:05:17 Ben: there is a question mark by their name when you aren't on their list , there is an x if there offline 2008-8-22 19:05:35 Ben :he has a question mark now, so it means he took me off his list 2008-8-22 19:06:14 Vanilla: u could say i insisted u told me the truth 2008-8-22 19:08:04 Ben: yeah, but that won't do much good 2008-8-22 19:08:31 Ben: he won't believe that 2008-8-22 19:08:35 Ben: anyway, it's ok . I've got to go now -- work is closing down 对于这样的结局我很无奈， 到底是谁错了，我还是ben? 为什么我的人生总是搞的跟拍戏似的， 所有的秘密总会败露。 旁边的一组照片出自于ben的单反， 真正的ps高手在这里啊~ 他可以bring out the deepness of the shadows hv no idea how he makes the colors stand out more....
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拍旁边的那组照片的时候非常尴尬， 其实被拍的时候常常希望pose的专业一点， 但每当只要一抬头， 面部表情常会返回到痴笑状态， 搞不清到底在傻笑什么， 我可以做没有脸的model。 最近事情开始变的越来越复杂， 同ben也开始有了隔阂， 谈到how to deal with the relationship. 他的那套理论让我愤怒。 Ben: I've done things with different people who I consider very good and close friends. But I have always been clear that I value the friendship first, and that I can't make a commitment. that could hurt people who want a commitment, but I'm being honest with them, and I have always been honest, The few times that I have commited, it has been a real commitment -- I got engaged once.and for different reasons it didn't work. But I'm very careful with how I treat other people in relationships,wether friendship or commitment. Vanilla: why it sounds so complicated? Is complex true? I mean, I want to be honest and honesty is many times simple. the reason why traditional values were simple is because life was simple back then. Ben: life is not simple now. Vanilla: sociaty is complicated. life is still simple.u could hv simple relationship in a complicated sociaty, whats wrong with it? Ben: either you're commited or it's not simple.And I only want to commit when I can fully and honestly do that, with traditional values, your parents would choose who you commit to, and it's done -- that's simple. Vanilla: all right. so ur opnion is like even u dating a gal a lot, u 2 were making out even hv sex. u still cant fully and honestly face the relationship right? Ben: ok, I think there's just a definition mix-up here. you're either friends with someone, or you are commited to that person and only that person. there are degrees of friendship (close friend, best friend), and there are degrees of commitment (boyfriend, husband). but that's all there is,dating is just friends ,if you use the word like you just did,if there's no commitment,a commitment is basically in order to see if you could be married to someone (or it should be). if you can't, you break up, if you can and it works out, you get married. but it should build from friend and go through every level. that's how I see it. Vanilla: ok, then tell me what u think if a guy ask me to be his gf before we are friends (the FRIENDS u just defined) Ben: that seems like a normal thing to do. as you get older, it's less common, but that's just because people get weaker. it's a good thing to wait unti the commitment is in place before expressing things physically. but you should be good friends with someone before you ask them to be your gf. and it's tough for some people to be that close and not make out. if he's asking you to be his gf and you're not good friends, I don't think that's a good thing. Vanilla: bullshit!!! 对他，我已经出离愤怒了。
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昨天晚上被ben叫出来当“知心姐姐”， nate&nichole走后， 他真的充分享受了孤独， 一个28岁的大男人不愿意一个人出去吃饭， 突然很迷茫的问我： what do u think if i cook by myself? 吃甜点让人心情愉快， 我们两个可怜的人跑到Amorino去吃意大利冰激凌， 40RMB each可以选择三种口味做成花瓣的形状。 仅仅为了好看我选了Tiramisu 做花心， cherry味做中花瓣，green tea做外花瓣。 order到最后一个被ben大大的嘲笑了一番， 问我会不会喝冰激凌口味的绿茶。 冰激凌化起来出奇的快， 一边舔一边不停的滴落， 我问ben怎么吃的那么快， 他说小时候如果不拼命吃会被别的小孩抢走。 哦，独身子女的好处就此呈现。
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nichole昨日离开上海回迈阿密继续攻读大学， 曾经的四人组又少了一个人。 从星期一开始Ben就威逼利诱我14日再Farawell一次， 三个人的farawell我不想参加， 何况怎么想也不会只有三个人， 美国人的告别会我是见识过的， 免不了会冒出很多不认识的“ben"和”eric"... 一群Morman的聚会我凑什么热闹。 第一次meet Nichole是在ktv， 边唱边跳惊艳四座， 她说她才20的时候我吓得不知道怎么回应， 暗想美国女人怎么那么显老啊？ 后来发现每次她的童真只有在看southpark&family guy的时候才涌现出来。 相比Ben来说， 这个小妹妹和我真的不能算熟， 但美国人的热情她倒是发挥的淋漓尽致， 我这辈子只碰到过两个不算很熟， 一起逛大街却会主动牵你手的人， 一个是Nate的朋友一韩国女人 （才第一次见啊，把我惊得牵着也不是缩回去也不是） 第二个就是她。 Nichole这一走怕也是不会再回来。 记得她走前出来吃过一顿饭， 她对我说：i cant stand stick here in shanghai and do nothing. 个性很要强的、 有远大抱负和理想的小女人， 一路走好！ PS: 图片是她走之前去新天地大吃一顿BBQ，她指我挤的冰淇凌说：looks like crab...
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今天在豆瓣上看到一个很好玩的网站， 可以把自己的照片变成动画， http://www.befunky.com/ 突然想到最近看的Waking Life， 由衷的“哦~~~~”一下， 原来就是这样出来的啊，强大的PS衍生物！
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N走之前送了我一整套作画的工具， 号称要帮我实现长久以来蠢蠢欲动想到当流浪艺术家的不切实际的梦想。 两个礼拜两点一线的有规律的生活是我目前的状态， 双休日哪里都不去就窝在家里画画， 曾经让我很不舒服的erin的送给他的三幅油画， 如今就这样被我堂而皇之的挂在家里的墙壁上， 油画背后的是漂亮的笔迹，暧昧的文字和她的电话。 我不care. 昨日和D在MSN上有的没的聊着他在FVW的工作， D: i got email that we have team building there, but its on 23rd of august , thats to early i am not in china then:( V: It will be fall or winter when u come over. D: septmeber still warm ！ 我迟疑了一下，不知道该怎么reply. 下个月他就回来了，我却是panic > excited. 很害怕他改变我现在慵懒惬意的宅女状态。 为什么我这么害怕孤独的人会突然留恋起寂寞的日子？
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一封我懒得回的信，不得不说N的这张照片很不错。 Aloha Vanilla, How are you? I'm watching the Olympics opening ceremony on ABC now. My dad is really impressed by the ceremony. I am too =). I have pretty crazy insomnia now and fall asleep at around 5 or 6 in the morning then wake up at 3. I went to the gym today and then played basketball outside until the sun went down and I hope that helps me fall asleep on time tonight. A few days ago my dad and two youngest brothers went up to the top of the mountain to take pictures. I told you they all have expensive cameras, but these pictures were all taken with my little camera. The sunset has been pretty beautiful lately. Well, I hope you're enjoying the Olympics now and are happy and well. Take care. ~ Nate
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终于打算换博了， 用了N年的MSN SPACE， 回忆太多， 不堪负荷。 有的人离开了， 过去的blog也就一起封存了吧。 D从西班牙出差回德了， FVW是自他拿到RWTH AACHEN DIPLOM后第一份正式工作。 希望他顺利通过最艰难的适应期。
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