will I give in finally? I don't think so. I keep on hanging on this little string, till I get up to safety again - I won't fall. I may sink down again a bit, but I won't let go, I won't back down, my will will keep me up..it won't let me down..

learning to embrace everything is hard task to do.. but I'm willing to learn. never forget the word, will - it can do magic at times. it is a word worth remembering. it kinda gives you meaning, so strong is its magic. the feeling comes back when there comes will again- to this rational way of thinking in darkness... and hope is his loyal companion, which his secret name could be love if you'd like.

when there are these times...where you are on the verge of giving in to this black box...that's pushing you in..like a black hole with its immense power...and these nasty tricks it does on you, with covering your view with a black blanket, to make you forget...to don't let you remember one thing- which could be fatal to his plan- that keeps you going around the hole.. try to still remember, even if the pain is so unbearable and you can't see anything anymore..even not anything worth-
remember the will..the confidence it has.. to live on. just try to remember the feeling. will with its magic it could preform. on people. on events. on history. on humanity. on everything. just this firm decision. like it holds onto something. and I will tell you a secret.. it holds light. just light. and light is pure feeling. a feeling you can't describe only feel. and there's nothing skeptical about it- you will feel it, understand it. and, it's just flawless. I think that's something worth experiencing.
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