I made myself to be isolated for a long time --just enclosed my family, one or two old frd , no body else came to touch me although sometimes they miss me. Good thing is i don"t miss them at all.
Maybe I am being extremely emotional.
The sadness is surrounding me at midnight.
The emptiness besides me at morning.
And the lacking energy, I felt it whole day.
The faith therapy never worked in my mind last 25 years. Now I realized the more i didn't believe it the more faith choose me to believe. Perhaps I couldn't jump out this circle ever.