Sit here and listen to the rain It falls so loud on my window pain Sometimes drowning me Its like a flood I wish the weather would lift me I wish it could Abandon ship before its too late Or all this love Ive got will turn into pain, You’re not so very far away But I feel more distant with each passing day I’m alone I’m the fire and youre the flame Feeling put out, whose to blame? Still I find myself misplaced Lost in someone else I feel erased ___ im alone. even though i know im not, i do feel that i am. you tell me iam not, but who can really understand how i feel and totally realize what i want. and not think that iam a crazed idiot who is just asked for obscurity. so that is what i do, sit here and listen to the rain. a light shower sounds like hail against my window. everything becomes so loud. i cover my ears so can block off all the noise, but how can it be when it is coming from the inside. my heart screams. and only the weather who is able to take me away from here is my only resort. should i abandon this ship? or wait til i get hurt? .... feel as if everything is vanishing before my eyes.
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Just think of this and me as just a few of the many things to lie around, to clutter up your shelves. And I wish you weren't worth the wait cause there's some thing's I'd like to say to you... And I don't think that you know what you've been missing 'Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing And I dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck, from those nights when we were both found at our best. Now I could make this obvious, and you, you could deny meall in one breath. you could shrug me off your shoulders... And I don't think that you know what you've been missing. 'Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing. And I don't think that you know I said I don't think you know I said I don't think you know what your missing. Hey, lush, have fun It's the weekend Hey, lush, have fun I don't think that you know what you've been missing. I don't think that you know what you've been missing. Just forget me it's that simple Just forget me it's that simple [yeah its one of those moments when she cant find the words to describe what's going on, or how they feel. so the alternative is to look into songs. guess what? im one of the lucky ones who did. every word of this is what im feeling right now or these days in fact. thanks band i-listen-to-from-time-to-time. to be honest, i didnt even realize it until the end. while i was sitting in that lab alone. then the last words of the song captured my attention. im also trying to look past the obvious.] its been 28 days.
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it was a grand place to be. it was warm and loving. it was all knowing and exciting. it was easy but very difficult to reach. it was open and carefree. it was scary the first time. it was confusing at times. most times. it was quiet inside, but very loud outside. or sometimes, it was loud inside, blocking the noise outside. it was an adventure, an exploration, into an abyss of someone else's world. it was new and bright. it was fast and short. it was realizing the smaller things. it was seeing the bigger picture. it was you. and it was me. it was we. it was it was. now im back. from flight CX907
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im just mad at myself, for not keeping to my promise. i didnt want to do this to you. especially not so quickly once again. am i the most horrible person in the world? yes. i admit it. time and time again i open my big fat mouth and i just say the wrong things at the wrong times. maybe you're right, no one should ever listen to me. dont take me serious, or else you'll be damned. who knows what will happen with my words next. no im not trying to sound powering or anything, but it's just nothing ever goes right. does this compensate for the things that i should be saying out loud? instead of saying the things i shoud, i blockade them with things i shouldnt and i take the consequences into my own hands. i swore on it. i swore on everything that i believed it. i believe in tunes, and right now, i absolutely detest the song piercing into my drums. i can only pick out things i dont wanna hear. she sings ''she will love you more than i could, she who dares to stand where i stood". good job. so much for being better than the next, when you're the monster. no. dont cry, (words of encouragement). because you've been through worse, but this just hurts the most. no longer can i look into your big brown eyes, sleek black hair without feeling like a giant disappointment. i swore on everything i believe in. everything is gone, but i cant possibly let the one last thing i belive in go.
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you are 3 galaxies away. but it do you hear the distant voices whispering? they are reminding you that you're getting close to home. to me. we're on this impossible mission, but our moose like skulls keeps us going forward. put on a helmet and follow us. because this is going to be tough. nothing great comes easily in life. yes, we maybe at opposite ends. and the meridian is unreachable, untouchable, possibly unthinkable. but no matter how distant you are, how far you may seem to the naked eye, you will always be right next to me. in my heart. that is what matters. let me revolve around you now. and make you my center, my core, my everything. can you hear the distant voices whispering? can you feel my heart beating?
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