it was so hard. this is so painful. is there any other way to put this into words. apart of me doesnt even wanna talk about it or think about it anymore. there are no words to explain how i feel about you anymore. you and i both know how this goes. and how this will go. please never apologize to me. it hurts me when you do because that is when i know that you cant do anything to make the situation better, for either of us. we need to think about what we need/want for our futures. and if im not in yours, then im not. ive told you numerous times on what my feelings are and i do not have to repeat them again. my actions show a lot than my words. and i would do anything for you. none of this was a lie. i spent everyday wishing the same thing, trying to build a future for us, but i guess somethings just dont go as they planned. i dont want to force you into something that will torture you. and i know you dont want to do the same for me. come to think of it, this is extremely cruel and ironic because what we want is to be together, but to be together would be torture? make sense? i dunno, this is shitty as i said, we'll see what happens.

"true love storys never have endings." - richard bach