who can i blame?
didnt i bring this all onto myself anyways?
everyone told me no
and i still went for it.
my heart told me that this was the right thing to do,
and that i will never regret this,
therefore i will be happy.
but why does it hurt now?
i wish i was as carefree as you are.
i wish i was as open as you are.
i wish i could care less,
but i everytime i get to this point,
only when i feel helpless,
i tend to let go.
i am not some sort of force of nature.
i do not want to play your God.
i just wanna be held the same way i held you.
if i dropped everything,
will i still receive the same ignorance that i do today?
why do i care so much?
do i care too much?

i wanna be carefree too.