i come home and i ask myself ... WHAT IN THE WORLD AM I DOING!?! im living in a hell hole. since my parents have left for their trip. i feel this sense of need to improve. on everything. for some odd reason, i dont feel like being in my room anymore. the night my parents left, i have left my bedroom, and i basically moved to the kitchen. because i wanna be closer to the fridge? no, i still barely eat outta there cause there's no food in there. the tv? no there's nothing on tv. the space? not exactly because i still consume only the smallest portion at the dinner table. but i look around me, and i just feel like there needs to be improvement. this house can do so much better. a big clean up. and no, im not going to be the one to do it. because it's not something that one person can do. no, it' snot that easy. there is just so much waste all around me. nothing is necessary. the people and the things. there's just too much stuff. now that i've been left alone for a few days, i still feel so congested. all this crap around me. i look around everywhere and i just wanna smash it into smithereens!! maybe im ready for a new life. i guess my own life? cuz nth here belongs to me. been here more over 10 yrs, and it still seems like a stranger to me. im so confused. and all these plans in my life, is it even plausible? i planned them because i want them... but how am i supposed to make it happen? oh man.. im so retarded, is how i feel right now. someone give me a box. and i'll stay in there forever. and i'll be happy. stop telephonin' me eh eh eh eh eh eh eh !
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we are the runaways. perfectly titled for us. so put on your best sneakers, cause it's gonna be a long way. there's no telling how far we'll go, to get what we want. what do we want? i have no fucking clue, but im sure it'll be the most amazing time to find that out with you. something we must do. i have your back, and you have mine. we'll carry each other along. you run, and i'll run with you too. this entire wild journey will leave us gasping for air. take my breath away will you? crimson and clover.
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im just mad at myself, for not keeping to my promise. i didnt want to do this to you. especially not so quickly once again. am i the most horrible person in the world? yes. i admit it. time and time again i open my big fat mouth and i just say the wrong things at the wrong times. maybe you're right, no one should ever listen to me. dont take me serious, or else you'll be damned. who knows what will happen with my words next. no im not trying to sound powering or anything, but it's just nothing ever goes right. does this compensate for the things that i should be saying out loud? instead of saying the things i shoud, i blockade them with things i shouldnt and i take the consequences into my own hands. i swore on it. i swore on everything that i believed it. i believe in tunes, and right now, i absolutely detest the song piercing into my drums. i can only pick out things i dont wanna hear. she sings ''she will love you more than i could, she who dares to stand where i stood". good job. so much for being better than the next, when you're the monster. no. dont cry, (words of encouragement). because you've been through worse, but this just hurts the most. no longer can i look into your big brown eyes, sleek black hair without feeling like a giant disappointment. i swore on everything i believe in. everything is gone, but i cant possibly let the one last thing i belive in go.
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every year, around this time, it is a time for celebration in my world. a celebration for the forthcoming of a new year, a new harvest, new beginnings. however, every year, new also means put on your sneakers and just run for your lives. i do not choose for the world to be this way, i do not want the days to go by like this. as the rest of the world around me celebrates in joy. the people around me suffer. every year i apologize. and i am not forgiven for what i've caused. but it's out of my control to bring them down so hard when it should be the highlight of their lives. every year, around this time, i become a stone on a pathway. i become small and blend in the crowd. one motion and it will break the sequence. i dont make sudden movments, noises, actions, thoughts. i do not want anything to happen, so i stand still. it's been a week. and i hvnt apologized. im sorry. hopefully next yr will be a brand new beginning.
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a baker was entering his kitchen to check on his batch of steamy caramel. ''stir faster!" he yells at his nervous sous chef with a biscuit in his mouth. nervous little sous chef was startled and dropped his biscuit into the vat of caramel. now the baker got so frustrated by his assistant's clumsiness, he went mad and poured the rest of the already-made chocolate into the mixture. after venting out his anger, as all good cooks do, lick their fingers... YUM! says the baker. its milk chocolate coating is the protection layer for the key ingredients inside which make it so delectable and unique. gooey caramel is too sticky on its own. crunchy biscuits are too dry on its own. but only together can they excite the world's tastebuds. even though when there is heat, and inside the gold foil, it seems like a war has erupted, everything is still sweet. i know for a fact, whenever im missing you, i can find a golden ticket to you. being a lone ingredient is can never make a recipe. i sincerely thank the one who mashed these two worlds together and created the greatest adventure of my life. there is always a thought of how certain things are created. and truthfully, i think 99% of things are created simply by accidents. and to make it good, coincidence. as most stories go, "i dont know how it happened, but one thing led to another and it just happened." everything occured so quickly, that not even you and i can fully understand what happened. but no one questions it when something great happens. twix is so good, it's never enough to have just one. let the adventure go on and on, and never end. iam willing to share my adventure with you.
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another year has gone by, and this has been a really good year, i really have nothing to complain about. in the beginning of the year, made some important decisions, i had to be cold, and ruthless, but i knew it must be done to allow the rest of my year breathable. i gasped for air, when i stopped drowning. floating and roaming around the sea of open spaces for a while. i was able to concentrate on what i want, and get back on the saddle and continue this trail. i met a wonderful new family, at school, at work, everywhere. (jim, jen, tiff, ken, mary, zu, sameera, farrah, haris, nat, sonia, nazia, broti, rabz, megha, shangami, darryl, korri) all the concerts ive been to this year... most amazing experiences and memories with korri birch. june. edgefest - the most dirtiest and painful day of my life. love it. aug. britney - every little girl's dream come true in 1999. sept. the killers - the most theatrical moments in my eyes. oct. METRIC - one of my fav bands! finally, ive waited for so long. and holla to the twitter buds ive made this year. (holly olly, leah, berns, my koi space alien) and the most important one of all...yui_ninja heh. ♥ this summer was a total flip of a coin, in june of 2009, it totally changed my world forever. my motivation now runs over and around you. together, we'll finish this adventure. paradise falls. i wanna thank the gang for always being the best buds & able to listen to my crap, and watch me crack the best jokes. ktp, po, ho, reb, mel, pamela, cat, & gab. cheers to you all! and guys, we ended this year with the biggest bang ever. you guys are the bombest. never forget. without all of you, 2009 would be 2007 all over again. greatest appreciation and love for yous. 2010.. i will conquer you too.
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i still remember that day when you flushed all my weed and cigarettes down the drain. that was a struggling fight that i had to fight for. but it was bad for me. that's why you did it. as great as this analogy goes, i want it back. i want everything that was bad for me back. my system urges for it. if the world constantly puts me back into that place, maybe im the one that is wrong and i shouldnt be so naive that i can change the world with my own morals, beliefs and opinions. it could possibly be life's way of steering me back to the way i was before. i thought i was a better person. but guess not. bring it on. i did it once, i can do it again.
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it's been a while since. no matter how tough it has been, how much stress ive put on to myself. i've been putting it off. and not letting it bother me. "looking on the bright side" but tonight, im sick of it. im tired of this. i dont wanna be that person anymore. no, not again. i want to do everything for you. but what for? sometimes i forget what the reason is. i totally regret going back there. did i know this was coming? no not really. the timing was just too good. perfect place, perfect time, the perfect person. let the net catch all the fish in the ocean and leave nothing for others. i need to get this out to you. before im too late. or you fall too far. but seems to me, patience is in our way. as i remember the days were i was being dubbed with nicknames like "impatient master" as a child, i now step down from that title for you. this is my world now, playing the waiting game. how much longer? i'll just sit back and enjoy the show. cause.
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just a thought in the shower. that i think everyone in the world is in denial about something. unable to face the truth. the real truth. they create this barrier around themselves to block and repel what they don't wanna know and face. slowly they became barricaded in this shadow, and get comfortable. and as they familarize with these false truths, they start to self destruct. all the time, every time, they try to find excuses and lies to tell their little voices inside that the prior idea that they had before was right. they wont let anything else in. because everyone's mind is a little world of their own within the universe. and humans like to control. their mind, and ideas, and decisions is the only thing that an individual can grasp. that is the only thing, because to tell you the truth, whether you like it or not, the world doesnt revolve around you, you just live in it. everything changes around you. to some people, i might be disturbing your mindsets, but i am too allowed to speak my mind. that is my decision. everyone is in some sort of denial. and the opposite to that is not to accepting the truth, or fact or anything. because what is the truth? who knows what the truth really is? who determines that? so the answer is to have hope. hope will never label a sentence as right or wrong. hope will give you the freedom of thinking of that you want to, and provide an imaginary safety net that the statement may not prevail. there. done. i just had these thoughts randomly sitting here.
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this is my world. i can do whatever i want in it. let whoever i want into it. but that's not all there is. i look below my feet and there is another world. another dimension that contains nothing i desire for. in my world, i can control everything that goes on there. every breeze and how long it lasts is in my hands. iam not trying to be this god of this place. but only to be free and in control of my own actions and movement. i want to be the god of myself. im currently living in your world. abandoning this place will leave you no reason for survival. because iam apart of what you control. if one day, you realize, that iam not within your empowerment anymore, this world of yours will disfunction, and break down. we're interconnected on dependency. however, your world will die and salvage. and that's when a whole new world begins.
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tonight, i watched a movie because i was down about the upcoming weeks to home. i decided to watch "eternal sunshine of a spotless mind". it is a story about a couple (joel and clementine) who had a wonderful long term relationship. clementine was not happy and decided to erase her memory of joel. now that joel is a stranger to her, joel decides to erase his memory too to relieve the pain. he undergoes a procedure which goes through each memory of clementine and deletes it, where it may be good or bad memories. during the process, his unconcious self realizes that he does not want to forget clementine at all. so he tries to put her into memories that she did not belong to before, like his childhood, therefore they cant erase the memory of her. the procedure continued to erase his memory. joel, being a very passive with a routined man, wakes up on valentines day and just felt like he shouldnt go to work. instead, he jumps on board to another train impulsively and heads to Montauk, where clementine told him to meet. ------------- when something true happens, no matter how much you try to manipulate it, change it, nothing will change. all the best memories are between 2 people. no one can take that away from you. no one can steal that identity from you. tell me where, and i'll meet you there.
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how do i let you know i miss you so? scream until oxygen fills my lungs once again. im cold and empty. how do i make up for lost time? hold on tight until we are the only ones around. im losing touch. how do i know you will be coming back? keep burning until there is nothing left. im falling apart. but until then, i will keep loving you the way i always have. you are right there in the centre of it all, and im giving you all of me.
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a lonesome cardinal was sitting on a tree, waiting for the right time to flee. just as it was about to spread its wings, a beautiful blue songbird landed and started to sing. entranced by her, cardinal decided to stay to right there. mid summer july, cardinal still listens right on by. now, the weather is changing, the little red bird had realized something. songbird has saved a soul with her tunes. saving many faces of the moon. never will i lose faith again. because you are my miracle. all you did was save my life. my life is indebted to you. this day marks the day, the day i first called you my love, mr. mercury sings "somebody to love". we are not fancy people, we do not need diamonds and limosines, because we already have the rarest gift of all. as the clouds above are my witness, i will always listen to the songbird sing. mahal kita.
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you are 3 galaxies away. but it do you hear the distant voices whispering? they are reminding you that you're getting close to home. to me. we're on this impossible mission, but our moose like skulls keeps us going forward. put on a helmet and follow us. because this is going to be tough. nothing great comes easily in life. yes, we maybe at opposite ends. and the meridian is unreachable, untouchable, possibly unthinkable. but no matter how distant you are, how far you may seem to the naked eye, you will always be right next to me. in my heart. that is what matters. let me revolve around you now. and make you my center, my core, my everything. can you hear the distant voices whispering? can you feel my heart beating?
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dedicated to you. ily.
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they want you to be something you're not. something you were never meant to be. something you were never cut out to become. they do not want good, they want greatness. they salvage on perfection. all because your success will become their claim. thieves steal your treasure. vultures on your back. blood suckers at most. imagine if i was you. the things i would tell to your face too. take it. and leave it. im just gonna be me.
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i guess i should learn the rest of the song. ahha but it came on randomly and i just couldnt stop singing it. it was like he entranced me to sing along with him! how crazy is that?! this time. it's featuring charlie. p.s to holly, haha i changed my mind last minute. Hold on little girl Show me what he's done to you Stand up little girl A broken heart can't be that bad When it's through, it's through Fate will twist the both of you So come on baby come on over Let me be the one to show you I'm the one who wants to be with you Deep inside I hope you feel it too Waited on a line of greens and blues Just to be the next to be with you
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throw a penny down the well, and i get a splash then ripples. clap my hands together and make a wish with all my might. all my thoughts are poured out into the well ever since that night. with you. you have become my wishing well, the peak of a mountain, the space of the ocean, the silence of the rain. as everything sinking into a bottomless pit, i know that you are on the other end. catching all my pennies, wishes, and thoughts. even if i get caught, it was all worth a shot. they all say it is impossible. but i will know that you exist on the other side. the taste, the touch. it might sound a little silly but, everyday i drop a penny into the well, and this lead me to you. no longer does it matter how far you are. nor the amount of time we get to spend together. because inside me, there is a well where i can fall into. something very true. [for mosquito]
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yeah really dont even try stopping me. cuz im never gonna budge. im like a rock. im like glue. i guess the song explains it much better than i do. [for hollyoli]
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forced to grow. but after you bloom, you will still remember which way the wind came from. with a little taste of reality, you grow towards the sunlight. compelling to reach up for the energy. below, millions are trying to catch up. unprepared, try and muster what you've got and run. dont let them get you. it's all in the name of the game. eye of the tiger soldier. stuck in the mud, and everything around you moves so much faster. brush off the dust and get with the cycle. life's not waiting for you.
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i felt like singing today. it's been a good day, so let's hope it stays that way. hey there. everybody. =) im so queer. muahaha
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i cant go one day. just one day! without wanting to punch you in the face. fuck guy, open your eyes and see who you're dealing with now. look around you and observe how the world works. times have changed, so if you evolve with it, no one can help you anymore. consider this an extreme warning like how ive always warned you. shut up! and leave me alone!
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when they are finally put six feet under, it projects something that was never put under covers. the mind screens experiences of the deadly soul. here comes the chill of the cold. poking their head out of the dirt, taking their glasses out of their shirt. watching their little heirs runnin', playing and gunnin'. these visuals are copied. they take in whatever you feed. for you to nurture, with nature. reliquish what is taboo, and speak out what is the truth. look up, and ask where the all the stars go? look down, and find the solution in an echo. ''oh father, i thirst for more." [how they will turn out to be, we will never know. but as their guardian, and sole protector, we have a responsibility to teach them the best we can and trust that they will make moral decisions. instead we confuse them with love and hate. we tell them to love is to possess. and to hate is to destroy. we have become confused ourselves because mistakes have been made to and fro. i recommend everyone to take a look back when they leave the world. and decide if they are satisfied with how they left the world to be.]
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when you have something you want to say, but you can't tell anyone or anything. let someone else do it for you. put on 20 pounds of clothes. put on your headphones. close the door. pretend you're the biggest star in the galaxy. and just explode in your own stardom. pulling off layers as you go. burst off the weight. and let the energy transform into the words you wanna scream. be it loud. be it whispers. much too many are not said. just take it off. bare to care, the skin you're showing. the cells on your face will tell each story. create this energy and burn the carpet. do it until it hurts and you're on your knees. beggin for mercy. but you just cant stop, until the songs over. you'll find it in between each drum beats and strum. pause for dramatic effect and... let it all go again. [2 drinks and a whole shit load of great music blasting in your ears will get to you this point, where i stand alone]
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drug addiction. submerged since i was fourteen. unable to tell. black and white. truth or lies. jenna fischer to amy adams. infant to seniority. life or death. obeying their orders. blood shot eyes keep bleeding as i take this step. clean. disorder. plain and new. still bleeding. i say, "excuse me, mind your own business." alternate type of addiction. a sickness so the rope burns my palms. and it feels so good just to hold onto something. once more. im blinded. let me continue to hold on. this sick addiction wont let me off that easily.
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a master in his genre. rejuvenate anything, creative music and dance. a legendary artist. with lights, eyes and no shadow. he let us into this world, too many of us got lost. on the way to Neverland. but billie jean brought us back. its the glove we love to own. its the beats we love to dance. its the jackets we love to wear. and the moves we love to learn. seven syllables to speak. thirteen lines to read out loud. now we know much we miss... Michael Joseph Jackson.
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this is first of the best moments of 2009!!! [[i love METRIC and BILLY TALENT for life!!!!]] CLICK HERE ^ to go to my flickr and see the rest of the photos from EDGEFEST 2009!!! p.s my phone died because it fell in the mud. but i resuscitated it after. so the band i missed filming was billy talent . life's all good =)
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everyone is the same. everyone is equal. it is our decisions which make us different and unique. it is our actions which make us hateful and grotesque. i have a poster in my room. i got it during my first year of post secondary education. it captured my eye, because it had many different beer bottles on it. it stated "Life is full of difficult decisions." the image is my decision. the sentence is my action. this is how i will live, i said to myself. as i continue this lifestyle, i find myself with more and more decisions to make. because that is how we grow. grow with responsibilties which we must adhere to. i think over many times because my decisions are important. to me. to you. to her. and to him. the beautiful part is, it's all up to you. there is no need for your apologies. the choice is yours. do what you think is best. **inspired by jann arden's time for mercy**
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why do we need so much stuff? there is a finite amount of resources that is given to us, and yes, what we do with it is all in our hands. however, whoever thought that we could deplete it so quickly. there is so much talk about when the world is going to end and everything and everyone gets so scared. people are afraid to step out. people are afraid that they are not beautiful. people are afraid their shoes are gonna be ruined. but there are also people who are afraid of having nothing to eat. people who are afraid of their personal safety. people who are afraid of their children taken away from them. all of these fears would not be existent, if there was a balance on earth. our lifestyles have depleted almost all of earth's natural resources. why? we multiply too fast. it is not the need to consume that is killing us. it's the rate we do it at. we intake so much energy from this place we call home, we do not allow it to regenerate itself. and we allow it to happen. for those out there who do not give a shit about nature. here's a question for you. what do you think those shoes you wearing are made out of? hate to break it to you, but it doesnt come out of thin air. come to think of it. even if it did came out of the sky, it's polluted too. and what do you think caused that? the end of the world is not what is portrayed as devils and satan rummaging in the sky, nor a volcano is going to blow up earth,, but. it is symbolic to the energy and life on this planet that it is coming to an end, dying down. and all the hints have been sitting right in front of us the whole time. look around you, the stuff you have consumed in the room you're sitting in right now, it came from somewhere. the possibility of something astronomical happening vs. the possibility of the last tree falling. CLICK ON THE PICTURE TO WATCH VIDEO!!
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its nothing special. and everyone knows it. you'll cry anways, whether you're happy or you're sad, and no one will ever know, because everyone goes through the exact same thing. oh brother, cant you see? look around you, and see how many people are also crying. begging on their knees to not turn into stone. we'll never know who will be loved next. but it'll be the best feeling of all. they will all say they are that happiest person in the world, at that moment. but it's they are not the only ones, they are not singled out, everyone else around them are celebrating too, joyous occasions should be shared. so you are not special nor unique, it's the atoms around your space creating you the same way they have been doing in light years.
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would you stay up with me and count the words i type? the words i type for you expressing my feelings? the feathering feelings i have for you not realizing you are too fast. too fast for me to catch up to. to catch your visions and heart and grasp it closely. close enough to taste the skin. naked skin to make me feel so empty without you. so please slow down. and allow me to type these feelings for you before you go. would you stay?
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I can't talk to you You think I'm lost inside my mind You're like an old tattoo And I know you'll fade in time I'm not the girl you think you know I'm not the girl you waited for I'm not the one for you It's just one thing left to do Why don't you let me be? 'Cause I'm a million miles away Why don't you set me free? You don't treat me like you said I won't tuck you in one last time I'm taking back what is mine For me, I belong to me And I'm going faster, you're going backwards You're gonna miss me when I'm gone I'm going faster, I know what I'm after I should've been after it all along I'm going faster I'm going faster That's the last black eye I hope I ever give to you Yeah, I had a good time But what's a girl supposed to do? Take the pictures off the wall They don't look like us at all They don't look like friends I've got new things to begin Why don't you let me be? 'Cause I'm a million miles away Why don't you set me free? I belong to me And I'm going faster, you're going backwards You're gonna miss me when I'm gone I hang from the ceiling, I feel what I'm feeling I should've been feeling it all along I'm going faster I'm going faster -- thanks. =)
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really i do. youve helped me made a decision. a decision that i believe that i dont regret. and some of this may seem like it's just out of anger and frustration, but sometimes that just brings out the wrost out of someone and brings out a certain truth too. youve opened up pandora's box and this is how it's gonna be. this blurb will have no break because everything is spilling out. it's a never ending flow. with the actions you make today, it will recieve the results that you helped create. i cant pretend. it only makes it worse. i cant even try togive you another chance to keep being your friend. the chance you get will only make things worse. so just leave me alone. please. we thought we could be friends but we cant be if you do not treat me like one. stop steppping into my life, stop appearing in my face. and treat me like iam the one who hurt you and iam the person who i "used" to be. you need to get your own life. and the only way to do that is to get out of mine. this will do you some good. so this is why i thank you. youve made my decision more clearer than i possibly can myself.
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most people dont understand why you do the things you do. but we all do those things too. unable to speak out or lead the line. dont you wish everything was just fine? but how can that be when you are not? only the insides of you know what they are taught. as a little message to the inner, you have to be bigger. a two time thinker. this cycle only gets more round.
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if everything gets out in the open, let it be. there just some things that i can't hide. that's just how i am. i cannot be this other being anymore. if you wanna exclude, go ahead. i do believe that i can live without you. it'll hurt, like it does now. but i know i'll be fine. life it is too complicated right now to deal with you. if it was due to how iam as a being that can make you stray me, then you were not worth me trying for. honestly saying i have not done anything that could make things this way. it's all up to you.
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i used to love the nightlife. i love the lights and the noise. but now it's become something i run away from. i try to just put my head under those covers, and dream away from it. leave me unconscience please, cause i dont wanna deal with the moon. everynight, at a certain period of time, the ghosts will creep up on me and whisper in my ear, telling me things i dont wanna know. stop following me around. why do you have to make everything so complicated? so hard? just let the people go, and shine on the other side of the world. days have become the new moon. keep me up and keep me moving. i just dont wanna think about dreams.
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sitting in my car waiting for the call, i laugh along. walking behind the crowd, i sing along. i dont know why i put a a smile on. when there a monster inside me. cage it in, shake it out, push it away, brush it off. i put on a smile for the one who don't matter. close my eyes and grin my pearly whites. the lines on my face spell take me away. wishing next time i see you wont be the same.
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always thought that dreams told me the truth, but who knew it was lie to me in such a great way. dreaming of lovely moments with you, and never noticed that they were rocking our setting. so fucked up, i cant even see behind the scenes. let it all out and let it spill. lies everywhere. please pinch me. i guess i dont understand why they would lie me... never push the big red button. never ever and in this dream, it never existed. but.... today, i just exploded. oh so twisted
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if you were to leave, i would feel empty inside. praying for that saint to bring you back to me. if you were to leave, i would not cry, never to make you worry, make a fist and hold in my beats. if you were to leave, i would let you go. hide in your shadows, and guide the rest of you ways, and sing the songs you love.
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as i walk along this endless path, i come up with ways to see that alluring face once again. what is the difference today? what is making my eyes close as if, something has forced the lights to turn down and bring me back into a dream. it's coming down from up above my head. it sprinkles down like rain, it sparkles bright like glitter, it the gift you always wanted, that was too big to put in a box with a bow. stardust is all around. on the ground, on the rim on my glasses, on the tip of our noses, just leave me your stardust to remember you by. and at the end of this pathway, i'll bring you to your dreams and such. your star awaits you. happy valentine's day and happy one month! =)
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what can i say, as fromage as it may, love is surely blind. in the back of my mind, is the image of your hand in mines. even with sun in my eyes, or when the clouds are filling the skies, i can and will always find my way to you. whispering softly cheek to cheek, so close, looking at you is like taking a little peek, it is the warmth of your kiss, which keeps my fire burning bright. it is you who i really miss, may i hold you tight every night? another day goes by, another thought of you crossed my mind. as the clock turns, and hours tick, i await for the sun meet the moon, so it can strike me blind. and experience the new kiss in the sun, all over again.
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your eyes radiates goodness. just like the sun after a thunderstorm. it brings out the beauty in life. as simple as one small gesture is, that is all it takes to make everything worth while. the storm is hitting hard at where i stand. but knowing that the warmth of your smile is still behind the clouds, i can still stand strong against the harshest storms.
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Nicotine valium vicodine marijuana ecstacy and alcohol Nicotine valium vicodine marijuana ecstacy and alcohol Nicotine valium vicodine marijuana ecstacy and alcohol that is all i need, to make my perfect world. perfect world exists, only in my dreams. my dreams consists of, nightmares and the voice. i dont mind being, in a nightmare now, because i know i'll wake up from it, and i can look over my shoulder, again, and see you there. or imagine you're are. Nicotine valium vicodine marijuana ecstacy and alcohol please bring me into a nightmare, one so bad where i can't wake up. until im strong enough to, realize you were never there.
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彩虹 作詞：周杰倫　 作曲：周杰倫 哪裡有彩虹告訴我　能不能把我的願望還給我 為什麼天這麼安靜　所有的雲都跑到我這裡 ※有沒有口罩一個給我　釋懷說了太多就成真不了 　也許時間是一種解藥　也是我現在正服下的毒藥 ＃看不見你的笑我怎麼睡得著　你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到 　沒有地球　太陽還是會繞　沒有理由　我也能自己走 ＊你要離開　我知道很簡單　你說依賴　是我們的阻礙 　就算放開　但能不能別沒收我的愛　當作我最後才明白 - this song tells everything i want to say better than i can. thanks jay chou. cant believe you made me tear up. 距離 (我不配) 作詞：方文山　 作曲：周杰倫 這街上太擁擠　太多人有秘密　玻璃上有霧氣在被隱藏起過去 妳臉上的情緒　在還原那場雨　這巷弄太過彎曲走不回故事裡 這日子不再綠　又斑駁了幾句　剩下搬空回憶的我在大房子裡 電影院的座椅　隔遙遠的距離　感情沒有對手戲妳跟自己下棋 還來不及仔仔細細寫下妳的關於 描述我如何愛妳　妳卻微笑的離我而去 ＃這感覺　已經不對　我努力在挽回 　一些些　應該體貼的感覺　我沒給 　妳嘟嘴　許的願望很卑微　在妥協 　是我忽略　妳不過要人陪 ＊這感覺　已經不對　我最後才了解 　一頁頁　不忍翻閱的情節　妳好累 　妳默背　為我掉過幾次淚　多憔悴 　而我心碎妳受罪　妳的美　我不配
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dont hate me. it's selfish, but it's for the greater good. and to forget, harsh words maybe out in place. to have a reason to do so. at first, the reason is for you. because to forget you, you being okay, needs to be a fact. and now that is passed. i need to work on self reflection. don't hate me. because im wondering if im lying. lying about my sanity. there are moments, when your image pops in front of my eyes, when your voice echoes in the back on my head. but, having these thoughts are not going to bring you back. because you are gone. nothing is within my control. because your needs are more important than mine.
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in here is the letter of your confessions, your final decision. only you know what is best for yourself. your letter will be kept dearly. like a little package inside my heart. within the creases, there are some last memories of you. you were always full of questions. but, all the blanks are filled in now. though you may never get to reach them, they are only phonecall away. on that note, promises are made to be kept. not forgotten or broken, no matter what. so if you ever need a helping hand, you will know. anytime. finally i can say out loud....i love you. one last time, goodnight, sweet dreams. =)
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i know how you love the blue skies. the skies will always be blue wherever you go. it's a gift from me. in times when you are low, you look down and the waters reflect that gorgeous view you love so much. blue skies everywhere to make you smile. keeping you feeling warm. a picture is worth a thousand words. but this picture contains a thousand of the same three words. a picture lasts longer. but somethings last forever. this may not be picture perfect but when i saw this, it just clicked.
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awesome! first post. this is the prettiest thing ive ever seen. maybe i'll start using it soon. but i already have myspace. feel free to take a look. =) woot~!
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