wow so the new decade has already turned one. and just like last year, i had have alot of people to thank. im not going to repeat that list again, because its the same group of people. of course i think that this is quite a good thing because my relationship with these people have grown stronger and will just continue (i believe for now). however, i do strongly stamp 2010 as one of the most craziest years of my life. so many things has happened, it was just eventful. that would be the best term to describe it as. january - i cant forget blue mountain. with the university mates. all the memories, the laughter, the alcohol. the falling, the jokes, the moments live on. i also got my snowboarding gear, which was the beginning of this wonderous sport in my life. february - well i turned twenty. 2 decades of life has went by. and who can forget.....WINTER OLYMPICS!!! GO TEAM CANADA!! march - crash time. the planning starts for my trip to PHILIPPINES. april - PHILIPPINES 2010. perfect. precious. love. memories. food. fun. awesomeness. just absolutely pure happiness. *hearts may - summer school of university. plant and restoration ecology. perfect courses for the tree hugger. june - back to keyman. making the money. thunderstorms, earthquakes, tornados, flash floods in toronto. canada is in trouble. FIFA world cup!! july - beaches, sunshine, warmth FIFA world cup ends - spain won. whilst i was rooting for the germans. the queen monster LADY GAGA live!! august - meeting up with bernie and leah. toronto tour. also a scar for life was made on my wrist. (its very misleading). i got a blackberry and loving it. september - back to see all my uni mates!!! october - halloween madness. nuit blanche! SCREEMERS! november - the hell of school begins. never had i had less sleep in my life and more time at school. --- the beginning of the plans and thoughts of moving out. saw sara bareilles live!!! december - goodbye FES! took my last classes in university, completing my degree! .... moments of death at work. ending it off with snowboarding at blue mountain with the girls. and a first time MUSHER. dog sledding!! --- ONE OF THE BEST YEARS EVER. NEVER FORGET YOU 2010. YOURE LIKE AN OLD FRIEND TO ME. FAREWELL. ID LOVE TO SEE YOU AGAIN SOON.---
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yea.so.one.of.the.worsedays.of my life. for over 10 yrs, i have been trying to do all i cant to make this house a little more bareable to live in. but i seriously cant do it anymore. like why do you have to make everything such a big deal ? you think we owe you for your support. but no that is not correct. to support us is humane, morals, your job, your responsibility. that is the leave you can do. but as a parent, a mentor, an inspiration, an educator, a caregiver, a mother, you have failed. as i was a child i had to take care of myself. broken promises i will always wake up with you leaving me. you began to leave me with bigger and angrier monsters. waiting and praying for you to come home soon to save me. that is how i learned how to read time. but you would never be ontime. even when you were back, the nightmare was over and shut. now im older, and this is how you treat me? i do things for myself and you beat me for it. you chase my down the street. barefeet. not realized what a fool you have made of youself. seeing you cry is not my weakness. i do not have a weakness for you anymore. if you are an adult, you need to be one. and let me be one. that slap on the face just fuelled me more. i have no love for you or for this god damn place. i quit.
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listen to your people. listening to their loud messages, what are they trying to tell you? you hold these gigantic meetings to talk about how to solve problems, but dont you see that the answer is right in front of you. you dont ask about what the people want. the people you work for. the people who gave you this position. pay your respects, at least. and not hurt them. if you look and listen carefully, they were NOT trying to hurt anybody. but to truly make a statement for you to see. obviously, people wouldnt come to such measures to gather your attention. yes, there were some a little offside, however it is your job to ''serve and protect". who are you serving? who are you protecting? please review these questions in your head before you act. innocent people were also affected during this time. people who were just in the streets in the wrong time, people wearing the wrong clothes within the wrong crowd. hurt and then detained. hypocrisy of the system. you cant blame them for their actions, we have rights, as you had the right to choose your passion and job. the city is now darkened, no matter how much you board up the windows, and repaint the walls, we will remember the damage that has been done. we wont forget the ignorance of our leader. i myself lost today, lost faith in the city of toronto. i hope those brave voices who were hurt will regain their strength once again to stand up and come forward peacefully once again. they might not understand your means, but it will follow through.
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